No one speaks honestly

(this is your big opportunity)

Most people have no idea how much they say what they don’t really mean.

We do this to ‘save face.’

We do it to avoid being disliked by Nancy in HR.

We sugarcoat the real truth because we have this precious ego we assume needs protecting because it hurts when we open ourselves to scrutiny.

What took me years to realise was that the more we do this, the deader we feel inside.

It’s that kind of underlying malaise we can’t quite put our finger on.

I just feel a bit ‘bleagh’. We think.

…Without realising we’ve been white lying through our teeth half our lives.

. . .

One day, I got tired of this hollow feeling.

My writing sucked.

No one was reading my shit.

So, mainly out of frustration, I just decided to let loose.

I wrote an article about my true feelings.

I wrote about how I hated school and that I had the worst anxiety growing up and that I spent half my life worrying about being disliked.

It was scary, but at the same time I felt this new little buzz behind my right ear that…