Art by my friend Tony AI who has wheels for feet.

How I went from awkward overthinker to more creative more of the time

Alex Mathers

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I’m in a cafe in Tallinn, Estonia.

I’m in my usual spot as people shove enormous croissants into their mouth holes.

I’m reflecting on how lucky I am to get to write and be a bit goofy for a living.

It hasn’t been without hard work and working on my mindset.

One of the things that continually held me back was overthinking.

The overthinking would lead to this low-level anxiety that stunted me further.

I’d continually grind my cogs as though running on the spot, paralysed by analysis.

I always had good reasons for why I wasn’t suited for this.

I created resistance to writing about certain topics.

I blocked myself from leaning into my projects and hitting ‘publish.’

Overthinking was spoiling my creative work, but it was also wrecking my confidence.

It made me awkward and self-conscious.

I lost out on so many opportunities.

It was when I found Eastern philosophies, Zen, Stoicism, and then ultimately ‘Three Principles’ teachings that I got a hold on my mind.

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